Nevertheless, I believe God wants this documented not only for His glory but for my remembrance as I look back and reflect on what he has brought me through because we pesky humans have this bad habit of forgetting.
To avoid that, I chose to document the lessons I learn (am learning) in this season as He leads me so here is the 1st one:
Akachi, stop being so stubborn with God! You only make the process longer. When he reveals something to you SWIFTLY obey. Don't brush it under the rug or write it off and hold on to your own ideas of how things HAVE to work out!
"Many are the plans in the mind of a man, but it is the purpose of the LORD that will stand." Prov 19:21
Now if only I realized this sooner. For example, On the day of a HUGE medical school interview (I believed God that the school was mine). A friend sent me Prov 3:5 "Trust in the LORD with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding." I remember reading it and thinking 'well this is irrelevant, why would he send me this? How does this encourage me to go forth to this interview? How does this affirm that God has already given me this school?' Of course he didn't know I had an interview but why would God let him send that arbitrarily. How terrible! Confused, I closed out of the app and focused on the promises of God.
See, earlier this year God told me that my time in my fathers house was spent, and confirmed it through many pastors, friends and even by instructing me to read the book of Daniel (theme: a young person who was away from home but remained stedfast in the Word of God and what he was taught). So I already knew that something was going to change I just didn't know what and to be honest when I saw nothing happening I started thinking it was all in my head. You can imagine that I was a complete emotional wreck when I received an interview invite.
But I digress.
After getting waitlisted at the school (post interview), my first choice, I just could not understand why God would allow this? When His word told me I would be the head and not the tail & He would give me the desires of my heart. After all, I did not ask for the school, it came out of nowhere giving me an interview so it had to be God's doing.
The school was perfect for me and fit the description of everything I wanted, the faculty loved me, how could they waitlist me?! Well one day when I stopped distancing myself from God, he began to teach me the meaning of Prov 3:5 & why it was sent to me that day. I had made that school an idol ever since the day of my interview. I could not go one single second without checking my email, calling the school or thinking about the school. He then encouraged me by telling me that I could have been rejected, but he left the door open for a reason (To be clear, I still do not know the reason but I have some ideas). In my stubbornness, I wanted to get in right now, i didn't want a waitlist. I wanted an immediate acceptance to ease my mind. I wanted to stop feeling so vulnerable and helpless as I wait on a response. I was tired of "trusting in the Lord with all my heart", I needed to see fruit! I wanted bragging rights dang it! weeeeeeellllll, he showed me my true heart & how all those reasons were wrong.They were me "leaning on my own understanding". I then FINALLY (this did not happen in a day) asked for forgiveness and put the school out of my mind, and asked God to just put me wherever I could please Him most. 1 week later, I received an acceptance letter to my second choice school!!! Right there was the guarantee of His promise that I was leaving, it became so real.
I said all that to say this: God will NOT move you into another season till you pass the test in your current one. Stop being stubborn and humble yourself before your God. He will close every single door until you understand that "patience must have its perfect work."
Glory be to God.
Grace & PEACE.
