WHOA!

There was no way I could go without blogging about my day today.

Fact: I am currently going through the toughest season of my life. I have likened it to an ongoing  nightmare that I cannot wake up from, no matter what I do. It's tough to go thru this as a christian because (some won't admit it but) we feel like this walk is a bed of roses and God just hands you whatever you want, keeping every storm at bay and you happy, one little mini test here and there,  "blessed and highly favored" chilling in la la land etc.

NEWSFLASH: "Indeed, all who desire to live a godly life in Christ Jesus will be persecuted," 

2 Tim 3:12.

Persecution = suffering, adversity, hardship, discomfort, affliction. 

But I didn't really come to terms with this that quickly. I kicked and I screamed and I cried and I got angry and I tried to pray it away, i mean I DID EVERYTHING, and yet my trial still remains. I am not writing because it is over, I am writing because God was faithful to finally give me some perspective and understanding on what is going on via: 

James 1:2-4: 

2 My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, 3 knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. 4 But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing.

You see God is perfecting me. Idk what for but since the beginning of this year He has been showing me through scripture, people, sermons, prophecies, events, etc that I am about to move into a new season. No idea why i thought it would be a smooth transition. Anyways, NOW I can rejoice in this hard, VERY HARD time because I know it is not in vain. God is pruning me and making me more Christ-like. Of course, my initial instinct was to RUN LIKE THEEEE WIND but according to this verse, I must let patience have its PERFECT work, its the only way I will become perfect and complete, and idk about you but I anticipate that outcome.

Sooooooo, In one day of being in God's presence, I went from afraid, to sad, to bawling my eyes out in prayer and pain, to complete JOY! That's what the presence of the Lord can do! I literally forsook everything, food, workout, errands to stay in his presence today until He helps me and just as he promised, He came through!

All i have to do now is trust Him, persevere, endure and let Him lead  because I will come out victorious by God's grace alone.

Seems easy enough. ^_^

grace & PEACE.